I remember the day I saw her, I was young, naive, and a pre-teen with a bottle of hormones. At first she wasnt really my type, I never really thought of her as nothing more than a friend, her voice was amazing though, such a big voice commin from a little scrawny girl amazed the hell outta me, when I heard her I couldn't help but listen. I think thats what officially drew me too her. We were always set up together on MMC I think it was because we had some sort of chemistry, little did we know at the time that we would develop even more chemistryin years to come. I remember the first kiss, it was her first official first kiss and well it wasnt mine but it was our first kiss...with each other. I had this weird feelin when I kissed her. well not like a bad weird but it was like butterflies ya know? But being 12 I kinda shrugged it off and Brit and I went on our separate ways. A few years went by *NSYNC hit the states and I heard that a little Miss Britney Spears was suppose to do some touring wih us and what not. I still thought of her as that little scrawny girl who liked baggy clothes and hung out with all us guys. All the guys and I were sittin in a room the next time I saw her and damn she wasnt that little girl anymore my jaw dropped some, checking our her features, I was in awe, she was beautiful. She still had that innocent persona about her and that drew me too her. Then we went through a "he said" "she said" sorta period and finally we hooked up. We had some hard times but the first 3 years were the best years of my life. The 4th year was the worst, all the pain was unbearable. After we broke up and I finished the Celebrity tour I locked myself in my house and wrote music till I would pass out then I would wake up and start the process all over again. The media always asked questions on her and I and I hated it. I had to pretend that I was down with the present situation when inside I was dyin. I couldnt live without her, I was tryin to prove to myself that I could but it was almost impossible. Time passed, very slowly, but it passed and Britney and I became friends; the way were were in MMC. Then this past week and we started datin again. The other night we somehow got on the topic of marriage, she said she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me, and I knew she ment it, I never really thought of gettin married at all but I knew if I would it would be with Britney. I know I couldnt pass up the chance of asking her to marry me when I knew for sure she would say yes. So I ran down to the lobby of the hotel and went to one of those 50 cent machines and bought a ring, than I ran back up and proposed to her.
So yes, Im getting married, we havent settled on a true date yet but i believe its the 31st of May, cause i have a few days off , but I am gettin married. She is the most beautiful women I have ever seen and the only woman I could ever imagine being with foever, Its just amazing when I think about it, we are gonna get married and later on start a family, the thought of that just amazes me and I cant wait to start.
I love her and I know I do cause I still get that feelin like I did when I was 12; everytime my lips brush against hers. Im ready for the long haul, good times and bad, she is my world and always will be......so come what may.
[/end sappy; "this will never happen again" post]